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today, i only had 2 hrs of sleep, and i had to rush off to expo to do a advertisement, for the singapore tourism board, marcus' lobang, had quite a few pple from my sch, so it was aite... brought tons of clothes, cos i had no idea what the fuck was executive wear... ... then we had lunsh at expo, i had orange julius, i had to rush off to tanjiong pagar. my modelling instructor, colin, asked me to go for a casting for a bridal show, 120 bucks for 1/2 hr, i guess i cld buy another extra top, but yeah,more for the experience, i mean i only had a lesson, and he asked me to go down, so i guess i must have done smtg right, but aiz, haha, didn't feel so, i realise i donot have the self confidence to do it. It's a different thing when u're prancing outside zouk, and differnt thing, when u're competing against older and more experience models. fuck, i've nv done anythinbg remotely like tt b4, i guess i shld have started earlier, to gain the experience, i felt so dumb and stupid and clumsy and so freaking ass shy... nabei, yeah, i didn't get it, hohoohohohho, oh well, kinda expected it anyway... ... oh well,at least there's the next thurs class to lk forward to, we're moving on to facial expressions, smtg tt i can't do on the "runway". yep, gonna focus on tt part.
after tt i went down to the sleazy pool parlour at fareast shopping centre to lk for gilson and gang, played pool, for a while, haha, gilson said i was gd for a girl, nabei lahz, i am gd... i think, hohoho.. a lil bit anyway...
and then we had to move on to zouk, i was throwing my temper, irritating everyone, giving them a black face, sniding them and complaining at the top of my voice, and they were all so nice to me. come to hink ofit, i can be quite a bad person at times,i feel mortified at my behaviour sometimes... i think i even irritated the ever so joyial gilson, too... oh well, sorrie, bad day. i feel bad now, i dun understand how derek can be so nice... i was making alot of useless comments, and bad too, i feel so uhz... now, but oh what the hell whatever, i'm not all surgary inside anyway...
then we rushed down to zouk, grace was pissed off, and i was pissed off, pms plus no sleep, plus waiting was what i absolutely hate to do... whining and complaining at the top of my voice, i think everyone was shocked at my behaviour, there's smtg absolutely wrong with me, i have to broadcast every single thought, regardless bad or gd, and every single complain...bleah, bad ann... evil ann...
nearly got into a bitch fight, with these two girls at zouk, so pissed off alr, still piss me off, imitating my whining, when i'm like less than a m away from them, idiots... but what ehz, i was kinda shocked when ang and yol started defending me so vigourously, scary aiz, they all... felt abit bad after tt, but at least they kept their mouth shut after tt. we got more than ten pple, u only have 2, so shut up...
went to great world for dinner, i had yoshinoya, andrea very pretty... ... jealous... so sweet... knnb, and she's so gd natured sumore.. hohoholucky bf...
vyasa called, asked me down to the lime party at momo,agreed, thought it wld be fun to see some celebrities, yeah whatever, boring... at least they had free food and free booze, and some free gift bags, whatever...
i can't socialise at all, i'm anti social,i feel bad, when the really outgoing ones try to include me in, but it just kinda seem so superficial... yeah, oh, i saw denise keller, yeah, she was the real thing, the rest, eye for a guy, blah blah, and singapore idol blah blah, ok, whatever... i mean i guess they're nice and all, ehz, actually i also dun think tt they actually thibk themselves a stars, so i better cut all the crap. we went down with vyasa's friend wendy, tiny thing, larger than life though, i dunno how she does it, she can talk to everyone, impressed, ehz, for me, i rather be the wall flower, got nuffin to talk abt anyway. bad mood... they must have been wondering what's up with this stupid tall girl, yeah, i was wearing heels and like towering over all the tiny girls there... oh well...i saw ben teo there too, y is he everywhere???? funny dude...
hmmm, i'm pah jiaoz, i just realised, slightly, hohoh, oh well, whatever...
gilson's damn pah jiao, hahahhahahahhahahaha,cheryl is too, hahahhaha, tim lim also,hahahhahaha, so many pple are pah jiao, go take a look at ur eyes, maybe u are pah jiao too, hahhahahaha, especially pple with big big big eyes. andrea's also a lil,but not ob, i think cos her eyes too big alr, liek china doll lidat, her hair's damn nice lahzzzzzz........ knnb... haha. lucky she's nice, or i'll be so ultimately jealous of her, hohohohoohhoohoh.
i think i'm evil... seriously,OMG,i dunwanna be evil, at least i'm not bitchy.. :)
i want new clothes,now!!!!!
angry alr...
better stay in my own lil ugly world, with cheryl and grace, haha, dunwan to lk at all the pretty pple, alr lahz... nabei....
